shit..i've been goin out nearly everyday after work for the past two weeks. no wonder mom's making noise. but im still home every night aren't i? was at the merlion again yesterday with the guys..beginning to really like that place..peaceful and best of all its not crowded. gona be meeting deen later at queensway..hmm..its been like 2 years since ive been there? gawd..sure miss secondary school. gota plan for the medical checkup date with deen. heh` im gona get to skip work. wonder whether dad will accept my proposal? at least im helping him to expand his business. though im trying to get a new PC for my efforts. Dell dad Dell..thats all im askin for. was thinkin..maybe SIM would be a good choice. problem is would i still have the desire to study after my fucking so-called "service to my country"?? fucking politicians..just figured..think the US has one hell of a jumbo ego..seems as though they can't accept the fact that other countries might have better military capabilities then them. hey fuck heres the thing..you don't rule the world asshole. just hate politics

weekend sucked..with the exception of a few fun moments. yeah..we disbanded..for about three hours till he realised what was really happening. i would't have changed my mind but i'm kind of glad he did. don't think any of us would have liked it to end. it was just our bloody egos. paid hen his dues yesterday so thats something off my mind. soccer was kind off fun though we lost. heh~ 150 bucks for a pair of boots?? who does he think he is? totti? i'm trying to be nice here but i just can't help agreeing with the guys. some people have the luxuries and thats that. yesterday was cool..hung out with the guys at city hall to celebrate her birthday. we switched from the esplanade to one fullerton to the new site of the merlion which was particularly nice..the water there was amazingly clean..it was this nice turquoise colour.. and it was just us guys coz the gals had gone back already. kind of prefer it that way. sometimes i wished i had someone the share these places with but well i won't dwell to the topic..won't do me any good. maybe it'll happen someday. think im stuck with the feeling. doubt it'll really go away. just being silent and bearing it. hope noone notices anyhow..fuck..something has been bugging me since morning..can't figure it out though..damn. meeting alfie at boon lay later for the usual. my minds kind of blank now..think i'll end here

sorry mom...

"im sorry but this is a bad time"->isn' everythime a bad time? guess i'll never learn