computer's in the office damn bored at home. at least i've got the other computer to access the internet. the project's comming along fine i guess. hope we'll be able to finish the crucial parts before deen has to report for the dreaded ns. decided against asking dad to pay me daily. it'll be fucken ridiculous. this way my earning won't be much, but at least my conscience is at peace.

emptiness resufacing again. guess ns won't be such a bad thing after all if the situation prolongs. the less free time i have, the better. spent last night dwelling on the future with kazuo. turns out his fears are similar to mine. life suddenly seems a lot more serious. hate growing up. somebody please invent a time machine?

everything seem blurry now. good for i got over the sucky part fast. alas the good times that followed was binded and passed by just as quickly. gig sucked for me. loads for laughs watching the door with the guys. they simply couldn't stop poking fun at people. had a wonderous time after the gig. it's been a long time since us, just the guys hung out. got crazy. wasn't long before we got into trouble with the 'authority' hah. talked through a wide range of topics. dirty secrets were all out in the open. embarrassing yet funny. hope we'll be able to do it again sometime.